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21st June 2005 - 12:02am Hmmm .. I appear to have returned. I thought it would round it off nicely, being exactly two months to the day since I last wrote. It would be nice if I had something to write about though, so i'll pretty much have to make something up unless I have a brainwave. I'm currently sitting here in my shorts(not a pretty sight) with a bunged up nose, puffy eyes and a headache. It's about 900 degrees outside and i'm hot. I hate the summer. Always have. As someone once said to me: "It's easier to get warm than it is to get cold." A saying I live by to this day. So what's been happening in the last few months?. In a word: nothing. It's sort of been up and down really since the job 'incident'. For those of you who don't know what i'm on about, click on the link at the bottom of the page to go back to my last entry and then it'll all make sense !!. I've gone from being ok to having a 48 hour job to not being ok about it. I keep wondering what would have happened if i'd managed to get what they wanted. Would I have still been there?. Then I go to the other end of the scale and I'm just totally not bothered. I think i'm finally starting to get a proper handle on how i feel about it though, but i've also fallen into a bit of a rut about life in general though. As of today, I officially can't afford to do anything .. ever. It's funny how the importance of money changes with certain circumstances. When you're young, ten pounds (or whatever your currency is) seemed like a fortune. Get to about 25 and it might buy you a couple of drinks and it becomes the equivalent of how a 10 year old would look at 10 pence. When you're working, money loses all meaning because it comes in from one direction and goes out in the other to pay your bills and living expenses. When you're not working though, it's almost like your attitude to money regresses back to your childhood. Ten pounds becomes a fortune again. That's how I feel at the moment - with approximately £2.30 to last me until this coming friday. That sounded pretty profound and deep in my head. :o) Right, i'm off. I'll try and update more regularly in future. Honest. [21st April 2005] |